So I have a confession to make: I’m a bad healer.
There, I said it….whew, feels good to get out. Been holding that in for awhile.
I have a second confession: I am a darn good healer. Not perfect, mind you, but good.
Now to explain these conflicting statements. I read blogs, armory other healers of my same spec, occasionally peer at Elitest Jerks, talk to others about how they do things. I don’t go IN DEPTH and theorycraft in my spare time, but I try to educate myself on how things are done. But when the chips are down and I’m in an instance/raid, I heal oftentimes by instinct. I mash buttons in a panic when tons of damage is being taken, I choose the ‘wrong’ spells (I use Flash of Light regularly, which would probably alarm most holy pallies out there..it’s a mana hog, but it’s fast and I can’t stop using it), I don’t always wait til I have 3 stacks of Holy Power to use WoG or LoD (which I don’t really ever use cause it doesn’t seem to do anything useful)….in other words, I don’t ‘do it right.’
I’m sure much of it is muscle memory. After all, I’ve been playing a holy pally for 6 years now, but my priest for only err, maybe a year (as disc anywho). I’m sure I’ve absorbed alot of how things are done by osmosis, but I hear folks discus their class’s abilities by tossing out stats and facts and I’m like, ‘Ummm, I just heal people when their green bars get low.” I feel stupid sometimes, for not being able to bandy about these terms with ease and confidence, that I *should* know this stuff, since I’m a semi-serious raider and all. But somehow I make it work in the end, I (and say this with no ego intended or to make myself sound like I’m full of it) do a darn good job, generally, of keeping folks alive and get compliments for my heals.
Could I be a better healer? Always, always, always. Would some of the big name blogger types who’s blogs I read look at me in dispair if they saw how I healed? What mistakes I make? Oh, it’s quite possible. By some folks’ standards, I might be labeled a bad healer, but really, I don’t feel that I am. I just do it differently at times. By instinct. I might use FoL more than a proper holy pally aught to, but it’s a quick spell for when Holy Shock isn’t available and folks need a quick heal before I can spare a longer casting time heal like Holy Light or Divine Light. And a living target is better than the dead one I might have because I took 2.5 extra seconds to cast a big spell. Least that’s my thinking.
But what do I know, I’m a bad healer.
Oh huh, WordPress tells me this is my 100th post. Yay me!